I would just like to take the time to apologize for my so called "family", and ALL their lies. I am done with this and am calling the cops on these sick and twisted people.......
I will no longer post or subject anyone to their sick and twisted comments, nobody should be subjected to this, inclueding myself.....
IT ENDS HERE!!!!
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
This is how supportive my "blood family" is... Part 2
The comments keep coming.........
There were so many more comments that I had to continue the blog:
I am tired of being cyber bullied......
This is what my "blood family" is saying about me on google+
This is from greeneyes_31
deleted my last post?? here it is again
It wasn't a threat, not at all just telling you to back off and stop spreading lies. Also as far as giving you proof... how the hell did you get that from what i said?? show's how you twist things around. I thought the cops told you to stop with the lies.
As we get older we do soul searching, it's not our fault you don't like what you see in yourself, in fact it is in question whether you have a soul or not. If you are going to continue to make false accusations against my family, then I am going to start stating some FACTS for you. I remember you touching me many time where you weren't supposed to, I knew back then you were creepy, that's why I never liked you. Have you ever stopped and thought to yourself YOU are the problem?? Stop blaming shit on other ppl and start taking responsibility for your own actions. You are toxic.
You need help, they have pills for your many personalities. You are trying to cause shit, and it's not going to work, nobody is listening, and in fact we don't care about your opinion, but I am not going to sit around and have you spread lies about me, or my uncle.
Start living in reality, stop craving attention and trying to play a victim role. Nobody cares.
Nothing but lies. This is the sickest thing I ever heard, completly not true....
This is again from greeneyes_31......
see you in court :)
I am just typing my autobioghraphy and trying to come to terms with my past......
Another one from greeneyes_31
You should also let your new "google" friends know why you don't have any friends now. You are a taker.... you take until everybody is drained. You tell lies to get ahead and don't care what your actions might do to other people, as long as you gain from it right kimmy?? Well you've gone to far now, and I am going to make sure ppl know what you are about. You are a liar. I would say your posts are great fiction, however they are so poorly written I couldn't get through all of them.. sorry about that. Maybe you should upgrade your English skills. Maybe your kids can teach you. js
I can't even coment on this one?????
This is from my cousin Lisa Suarez
ATTENTION ALL STRANGER!!! I AM KIMBERLY'S FIRST COUSIN, AND AM MORE THAN HAPPY TO TELL.
KIMBERLY IS A COMPULSIVE LIAR AND HAS REFUSED ANY HELP/TREATMENT IN DEALINGS WITH HER ATTENTION REQUIREMENTS. YES SHE HAS A TROUBLED PAST, BUT NOT WHAT SHE IS DESCRIBING ON THIS SITE. IT HAS TAKEN ME 4 HOURS JUST TO CALM DOWN. THIS BIO IS COMPLETELY FALSE. KIM WAS 15YRS OLD WHEN SHE LEFT WITH HER MOTHERS BOYFRIEND OF 43. HAD A COUPLE OF KIDS AND HAS ISOLATED HERSELF ON THE INTERNET, MY FAMILY PAID FOR HER PUBLISHING OF HER FIRST BOOK THAT DIDNT SELL, WE TRIED TO GIVE HER LIFE, AND HELPED ANY WAY WE COULD HER BEING SO FAR AWAY... AND NOW IS WRAPPED UP IN SERIOUS READING MATERIAL, PREHAPS TO MAKE A SALE..WE ALL HAVE SOB STORIES OF OUR CHILDHOOD, BUT BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THE ONLY THING TRUE IS A MEDICAL LAWSUIT THAT HER DAD AND GRANDMA FOUGHT AND PAID FOR, SHE DID HAVE A SERIOUS STROKE AND WE ALL GEARED TO BRAIN DAMAGE, BUT CLEARLY NOW THE ENTIRE FAMILY KNOWS SHE IS JUST WIRED WRONG....CURRENT TO THIS DATE HER PRECIOUS HUSBAND HAS GOTTEN A 15YR GIRL PREGNANT IN THEIR HOME. VIA A 3SUM, WHO KNOWS IF KIMS CHILDREN ARE SAFE OR IF SHES ANOTHER PREDITOR!!
HER BLOOD FAMILY LEFT HER FOR GOOD REASON AS WE DID NOT APPROVE OF HER ACTIONS THAN NOR NOW, CAN NO LONGER SEND HER GROCERIES OR PAY HER BILLS!! AS SHE WIPED OUT 1.2MILL$$ AND DIDNT EVEN OFFER TO PAY THE LEGAL FEES THAT HER FAMILY DID FIGHTING FOR HER.....NUMEROUS GOD FORBIDDEN LIES AND SERIOUS DRAMA. AND TO RAEBETH AND THESE STRANGERS THAT NEED TO KNOW BIO ARE TO BE TRUTHFUL NOT FICTION, YOU COME HERE CLEARLY DEFENDING DRAMA JUNKIES AND SHOULD KNOW THIS WILL ALL BE GOING TO COURT AND KIM HAS BEEN IN TROUBLE WITH THESE THINGS BEFORE INCLUDING RESTRAINING ORDERS GEARED BY A JUDGE. I ENCOURGE ALL "FRIENDS" TO IMMEDIATLEY LEAVE THIS SITE BEFORE GETTING DRAGGED INTO SOMETHING YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT. KIM YOU NEED HELP, AND YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO SEEK IT. AND I AM NOT WORRIED ABOUT THIS "BOOK" YOUR WRITTING AS WE BOTH KNOW 1/4 IS TRUE, AND YOU HAVE NO MONEY TO PUBLISH, AND THESE CHARACTERS ARE FICTIONAL WITHIN THE DAMAGE OF THE CEREBAL WALLS IN YOUR HEAD, YOUR IN YOUR 30'S NOW AND NONE OF US WILL ATTEMPT RESCUE EVER AGAIN. IM APPAULED AND FEEL GREAT SHAME THAT YOU HAVE SUNK TO A NEW LOW. AS I KNOW THIS IS WHAT YOU DO WHEN YOU HAVE TEMPERTANTRUMS. ALSO NOTED ON FACEBOOK.
THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR YOU, AND I WILL BE MORE THAN HAPPY TO AIR YOUR LAUNDRY...... SOCIALOLOGY 101...VICTIMS DONT SCREAM ON THEIR OWN WALL, CRYING RAPE OF HER FATHER,,HER FATHER DID NO SUCH THING BUT HANG ON ASLONG AS HE COULD, I TOLD HIM TO SUE YOU BUT HE HAS SPENT MORE MONEY ON YOU AND IF I WERE HIM I WOULDA RAN FROM YOU TOO,,,YOU WANNA HOLD GRUGES HOLD THEM PRIVATLY WITHIN UR SELF. IT WAS YOU WHO RAN AWAY WITH A MAN 30YRS OLDER BY CHOICE... AS A VICTIM MYSELF OF MY FATHER,,, I SEEK BLOGS FOR RECOVERY AND JUSTICE. AND TALK TO PROFESSIONALS AND EDUCATE THE YOUNG WHOM DOESNT KNOW THE DIFFERENCE....... NOT BIOGRAPHY TO GAIN FIANCIAL AID......ATTENTION FICTIONAL WHORE IS ALL, ANYONE WHO WISHES TO CONTACT WITH QUESTIONS LEGALLY OR SINCERLY YOUR WELCOME TO COME AS AN ADULT WITH PROPER SPEAKING TERMS.
This is nothing but lies.......
Nobody paid to have my first book published. It was published by Publish America As any other would tell you I didn't have to pay a cent, and nobody has EVER helped us out with our bills. As far as a restraining order goes, I have never been in trouble with the law, and don't even know what one looks like....
This is Defamation of charector at it's best........
Another post from Lisa Suarez.....
next she will be accussing us all of molesting! good thing i kept a diary! dated and timed! 80% of victims become premesquis the other 20% become offenders!
As most people who have been raped it is a very difficult thing to overcome, and MANY MANY people know that a lot of people who have shared my experiances have also wrote them out to help them deal.....
My original blog: "I am a survivor, but..." Was me attempting to come to terms with what has happened to me. Thousands of people publish their stories of child rape every year. I'm not in it for the money, I'm writing my autobioghraphy as a way of dealing with all that has happened to me in the past. It's only natural........
Another one from greeneyes_31
There were so many more comments that I had to continue the blog:
I am tired of being cyber bullied......
This is what my "blood family" is saying about me on google+
This is from greeneyes_31
deleted my last post?? here it is again
It wasn't a threat, not at all just telling you to back off and stop spreading lies. Also as far as giving you proof... how the hell did you get that from what i said?? show's how you twist things around. I thought the cops told you to stop with the lies.
As we get older we do soul searching, it's not our fault you don't like what you see in yourself, in fact it is in question whether you have a soul or not. If you are going to continue to make false accusations against my family, then I am going to start stating some FACTS for you. I remember you touching me many time where you weren't supposed to, I knew back then you were creepy, that's why I never liked you. Have you ever stopped and thought to yourself YOU are the problem?? Stop blaming shit on other ppl and start taking responsibility for your own actions. You are toxic.
You need help, they have pills for your many personalities. You are trying to cause shit, and it's not going to work, nobody is listening, and in fact we don't care about your opinion, but I am not going to sit around and have you spread lies about me, or my uncle.
Start living in reality, stop craving attention and trying to play a victim role. Nobody cares.
Nothing but lies. This is the sickest thing I ever heard, completly not true....
This is again from greeneyes_31......
see you in court :)
I am just typing my autobioghraphy and trying to come to terms with my past......
Another one from greeneyes_31
You should also let your new "google" friends know why you don't have any friends now. You are a taker.... you take until everybody is drained. You tell lies to get ahead and don't care what your actions might do to other people, as long as you gain from it right kimmy?? Well you've gone to far now, and I am going to make sure ppl know what you are about. You are a liar. I would say your posts are great fiction, however they are so poorly written I couldn't get through all of them.. sorry about that. Maybe you should upgrade your English skills. Maybe your kids can teach you. js
I can't even coment on this one?????
This is from my cousin Lisa Suarez
ATTENTION ALL STRANGER!!! I AM KIMBERLY'S FIRST COUSIN, AND AM MORE THAN HAPPY TO TELL.
KIMBERLY IS A COMPULSIVE LIAR AND HAS REFUSED ANY HELP/TREATMENT IN DEALINGS WITH HER ATTENTION REQUIREMENTS. YES SHE HAS A TROUBLED PAST, BUT NOT WHAT SHE IS DESCRIBING ON THIS SITE. IT HAS TAKEN ME 4 HOURS JUST TO CALM DOWN. THIS BIO IS COMPLETELY FALSE. KIM WAS 15YRS OLD WHEN SHE LEFT WITH HER MOTHERS BOYFRIEND OF 43. HAD A COUPLE OF KIDS AND HAS ISOLATED HERSELF ON THE INTERNET, MY FAMILY PAID FOR HER PUBLISHING OF HER FIRST BOOK THAT DIDNT SELL, WE TRIED TO GIVE HER LIFE, AND HELPED ANY WAY WE COULD HER BEING SO FAR AWAY... AND NOW IS WRAPPED UP IN SERIOUS READING MATERIAL, PREHAPS TO MAKE A SALE..WE ALL HAVE SOB STORIES OF OUR CHILDHOOD, BUT BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THE ONLY THING TRUE IS A MEDICAL LAWSUIT THAT HER DAD AND GRANDMA FOUGHT AND PAID FOR, SHE DID HAVE A SERIOUS STROKE AND WE ALL GEARED TO BRAIN DAMAGE, BUT CLEARLY NOW THE ENTIRE FAMILY KNOWS SHE IS JUST WIRED WRONG....CURRENT TO THIS DATE HER PRECIOUS HUSBAND HAS GOTTEN A 15YR GIRL PREGNANT IN THEIR HOME. VIA A 3SUM, WHO KNOWS IF KIMS CHILDREN ARE SAFE OR IF SHES ANOTHER PREDITOR!!
HER BLOOD FAMILY LEFT HER FOR GOOD REASON AS WE DID NOT APPROVE OF HER ACTIONS THAN NOR NOW, CAN NO LONGER SEND HER GROCERIES OR PAY HER BILLS!! AS SHE WIPED OUT 1.2MILL$$ AND DIDNT EVEN OFFER TO PAY THE LEGAL FEES THAT HER FAMILY DID FIGHTING FOR HER.....NUMEROUS GOD FORBIDDEN LIES AND SERIOUS DRAMA. AND TO RAEBETH AND THESE STRANGERS THAT NEED TO KNOW BIO ARE TO BE TRUTHFUL NOT FICTION, YOU COME HERE CLEARLY DEFENDING DRAMA JUNKIES AND SHOULD KNOW THIS WILL ALL BE GOING TO COURT AND KIM HAS BEEN IN TROUBLE WITH THESE THINGS BEFORE INCLUDING RESTRAINING ORDERS GEARED BY A JUDGE. I ENCOURGE ALL "FRIENDS" TO IMMEDIATLEY LEAVE THIS SITE BEFORE GETTING DRAGGED INTO SOMETHING YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT. KIM YOU NEED HELP, AND YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO SEEK IT. AND I AM NOT WORRIED ABOUT THIS "BOOK" YOUR WRITTING AS WE BOTH KNOW 1/4 IS TRUE, AND YOU HAVE NO MONEY TO PUBLISH, AND THESE CHARACTERS ARE FICTIONAL WITHIN THE DAMAGE OF THE CEREBAL WALLS IN YOUR HEAD, YOUR IN YOUR 30'S NOW AND NONE OF US WILL ATTEMPT RESCUE EVER AGAIN. IM APPAULED AND FEEL GREAT SHAME THAT YOU HAVE SUNK TO A NEW LOW. AS I KNOW THIS IS WHAT YOU DO WHEN YOU HAVE TEMPERTANTRUMS. ALSO NOTED ON FACEBOOK.
THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR YOU, AND I WILL BE MORE THAN HAPPY TO AIR YOUR LAUNDRY...... SOCIALOLOGY 101...VICTIMS DONT SCREAM ON THEIR OWN WALL, CRYING RAPE OF HER FATHER,,HER FATHER DID NO SUCH THING BUT HANG ON ASLONG AS HE COULD, I TOLD HIM TO SUE YOU BUT HE HAS SPENT MORE MONEY ON YOU AND IF I WERE HIM I WOULDA RAN FROM YOU TOO,,,YOU WANNA HOLD GRUGES HOLD THEM PRIVATLY WITHIN UR SELF. IT WAS YOU WHO RAN AWAY WITH A MAN 30YRS OLDER BY CHOICE... AS A VICTIM MYSELF OF MY FATHER,,, I SEEK BLOGS FOR RECOVERY AND JUSTICE. AND TALK TO PROFESSIONALS AND EDUCATE THE YOUNG WHOM DOESNT KNOW THE DIFFERENCE....... NOT BIOGRAPHY TO GAIN FIANCIAL AID......ATTENTION FICTIONAL WHORE IS ALL, ANYONE WHO WISHES TO CONTACT WITH QUESTIONS LEGALLY OR SINCERLY YOUR WELCOME TO COME AS AN ADULT WITH PROPER SPEAKING TERMS.
This is nothing but lies.......
Nobody paid to have my first book published. It was published by Publish America As any other would tell you I didn't have to pay a cent, and nobody has EVER helped us out with our bills. As far as a restraining order goes, I have never been in trouble with the law, and don't even know what one looks like....
This is Defamation of charector at it's best........
Another post from Lisa Suarez.....
next she will be accussing us all of molesting! good thing i kept a diary! dated and timed! 80% of victims become premesquis the other 20% become offenders!
As most people who have been raped it is a very difficult thing to overcome, and MANY MANY people know that a lot of people who have shared my experiances have also wrote them out to help them deal.....
My original blog: "I am a survivor, but..." Was me attempting to come to terms with what has happened to me. Thousands of people publish their stories of child rape every year. I'm not in it for the money, I'm writing my autobioghraphy as a way of dealing with all that has happened to me in the past. It's only natural........
Another one from greeneyes_31
you are nothing but a liar. You are delusional and lies like this are called slander. You have always created more drama then necessary, and i noticed your new post. If your family is who you make it, fine.. good and dandy. Stop being a bitch and spreading lies, or better yet go get lost in the woods somewhere.
This is from my cousin Lisa Saurez...
MAYBE TIM WILL TAKE HER TO THE WOODS IF THERE IS INSURANCE POLICY WHICH I DOUBT, AS HER PAYOUT HAS BEEN SPENT!! THEY CANT EVEN AFFORD THE BASICS OF LIVING !
Another lie.......
Another post from greeneyes_31
and Kim, this is only the beginning. We know the truth. Your jealousy and lies are going to get you nowhere really quick. I just hope your kids are safe..
Posted on google+ by Lisa Saurez..
KIM GET A JOB!!! SAME WITH SIGNIFICANT OTHER!!! WHAT IS HE LIKE 70 NOW>>?? NO RETIREMENT SAVINGS NO NOTHING THE GOVERNMENT NOR ANYONE PAYING TAXES SHOULD BE PAYING FOR YOU !!! YOUR BOTH SLOBS TAKE UP COMMUNITY SERVICE AT LEAST!
Raising a family and taking care of my house is a full time job.....
I am trying to get my writing career...
Tim my husband is on Disability because of his shoulder and back, which are both
Deteriorating very rapidly and the doctor took him off of work....
Another comment from greeneyes_31
listen bitch, you tried once with your lies and everyone saw through it. Big tough woman you are mentally abusing children and a family in their time of need. Wow, says a lot about your character. You tried once and failed, you will continue to fail. You're right... you have nothing to lose, you lost it all already. I have nothing to lose because I know who I am and I will always be better then you. I have happy healthy children, both with a higher IQ then you.
Greeneyes_31 again....
your father is nothing more then a wonderful man who always tried to do right by you. You are an ungrateful, money hungry, sorry excuse for a daughter. He deserved so much better then you for a daughter, no worries though, my children and I love him very much and cherish every moment we get to see him.
I am sure there are more, but I can't stand to read anymore, everything said about me is nothing but lies...
I am the one who ran away from them, and this is why...
Sorry to subject you to such stupidity, but the world needs to see CYBER BULLYING AT ITS BEST!.
This is how supportive my "blood family" is...
These are the comments I have recieved about my blog and e-mails about writing my autobioghraphy......
I don't like profanity on my wall....I have no objection to Kim writing her autobiography...as long as she keeps to the facts of herself......if she wants to wreck reputations that becomes a criminal matter....and she stands to be exposed as a liar and a fraud and unfit to parent...she is the one who was offered an opportunity to have hypnosis,or a lie detecter test...and would have had the backing of everyone if she had co operated...she refused.She does a grave injustice to true victims of sexual abuse....and she is the one that has no self respect....she has embarressed me on facebook for the last time.It'ds being reported....and I suggest you call your mom....
This one was posted on facebook by an aunt of mine....She posted this on my brother's wall.
It is a proven fact that most survivor's of child rape block their experiances from their minds and don't remember until years later....
I know who you are greeneyes 31!
You're not fooling me. I also know who you are...
I sent her my address.........
Same goes for you "Jessica" I am not stupid.....I am raising two children, and raising my little brother who my mother refuses to look after or pay the child support she is collecting to help in the cost of raising him....
And any mother out there would say that raising a family IS A FULL TIME JOB!
I wasn't the one I wrote this about. It was about my husband of 17 years who was forced to stop working due to an injury.........
Yes it is true that was in therapy from the age of 5 to 17 years old, but most people would if they woke up one day disabled because of an incompedent doctor.
This is an email from a cousin.....
Listen you sick, delusional, psychotic crazy bitch. You need to stop with the drama and the bullshit. You know damn well that your father never did anything to you. You are a money hungry, ungrateful daughter/ person. You suck the life out of everyone around you which is why you are alone and your husband has a young thing preggo. Hahahaha , good luck with that!
You need to remove that blog about your father and the one of me bitch. You need to pay attention to your own attention starved children and remain gone from our lives. You need to disappear. You hate the gallants so much.. good, we are not that fond of you either, in fact I am ashamed to admit that you are somehow related to me.
Instead of going and looking for trouble, try and find some happiness in your pathetic life. Forget we exist, as you are already forgotten to us.
Same cousin sent me this to...
Wouldn't you love to have a family like mine LOL, they are just so sweet aren't they.........
I didn't fix spelling or grammer because I didn't want to mess with what they were saying...............
From now on all their comments will be posted...
Hope you enjoy...
I don't like profanity on my wall....I have no objection to Kim writing her autobiography...as long as she keeps to the facts of herself......if she wants to wreck reputations that becomes a criminal matter....and she stands to be exposed as a liar and a fraud and unfit to parent...she is the one who was offered an opportunity to have hypnosis,or a lie detecter test...and would have had the backing of everyone if she had co operated...she refused.She does a grave injustice to true victims of sexual abuse....and she is the one that has no self respect....she has embarressed me on facebook for the last time.It'ds being reported....and I suggest you call your mom....
This one was posted on facebook by an aunt of mine....She posted this on my brother's wall.
It is a proven fact that most survivor's of child rape block their experiances from their minds and don't remember until years later....
you sick bitch, you need to get a life of your own, continue this shit and i'll sue you. you want a fight?? bring it bitch. on To whom it may concern
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I know who you are greeneyes 31!
I think your the one on crack and I know of who you speak! What is this all hearsay for you? These children and mother I am very close with!! and know for fact that this bullshit is untrue. Its people and family like you that makes the world go round, dispicable people are the ones that find pleasure in making other peoples day harder. Words are word and I am not able to pyiscially find you.. But I so wish I could! on To whom it may concern
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You're not fooling me. I also know who you are...
I sent her my address.........
you have never worked a day in your life so I think and so does other you need to shut the fuck up you have no idea what you talking about!!!! Why don't you try and work there is nothing stopping you but u think everyone and the government owe you and they are the ones supporting ur kids....Mom is the one who got you guys the money from the government well more money...Just to let you no everything I send you I keep and send to everyone...that means the two ppl on this site too... on Help the sick and injured
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Same goes for you "Jessica" I am not stupid.....I am raising two children, and raising my little brother who my mother refuses to look after or pay the child support she is collecting to help in the cost of raising him....
And any mother out there would say that raising a family IS A FULL TIME JOB!
I wasn't the one I wrote this about. It was about my husband of 17 years who was forced to stop working due to an injury.........
U need to watch out their is a reason why she has no friends or family in her life anymore...she is a lair she has been her hole life and she has been in therapy from the time she was 5 to an adult....she has been very well looked after wanting for nothing....she has a handicap in her hole left side...Now she had to go through a lot of physical therapy had to take off a lot of school...I no cuz I took off to the park one time when I wanted my mom to take me with them...and if wasn't care for someone would has none and she wouldn't have been to all the therapist..both sides of the family sued both doctor for what did and was always around helping her....I took the back set burner everything was about kim but I wouldn't change that for the world it helped...and by the way u can't bring man around her she is always asking for sex don't care who is around why some of don't talk to her....when she was 16 teen she started seeing my moms ex-boyfriend be-hide everyone's back he was 43 yrs. He on Family
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Yes it is true that was in therapy from the age of 5 to 17 years old, but most people would if they woke up one day disabled because of an incompedent doctor.
This is an email from a cousin.....
Listen you sick, delusional, psychotic crazy bitch. You need to stop with the drama and the bullshit. You know damn well that your father never did anything to you. You are a money hungry, ungrateful daughter/ person. You suck the life out of everyone around you which is why you are alone and your husband has a young thing preggo. Hahahaha , good luck with that!
You need to remove that blog about your father and the one of me bitch. You need to pay attention to your own attention starved children and remain gone from our lives. You need to disappear. You hate the gallants so much.. good, we are not that fond of you either, in fact I am ashamed to admit that you are somehow related to me.
Instead of going and looking for trouble, try and find some happiness in your pathetic life. Forget we exist, as you are already forgotten to us.
Same cousin sent me this to...
you are nothing but a liar. You are delusional and lies like this are called slander. You have always created more drama then necessary, and i noticed your new post. If your family is who you make it, fine.. good and dandy. Stop being a bitch and spreading lies, or better yet go get lost in the woods somewhere
Again the same cousin sent this to me.....
your father is nothing more then a wonderful man who always tried to do right by you. You are an ungrateful, money hungry, sorry excuse for a daughter. He deserved so much better then you for a daughter, no worries though, my children and I love him very much and cherish every moment we get to see him.
Wouldn't you love to have a family like mine LOL, they are just so sweet aren't they.........
I didn't fix spelling or grammer because I didn't want to mess with what they were saying...............
From now on all their comments will be posted...
Hope you enjoy...
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Family
Family is supposed to be everything. It's where you came from and who looks after you when your little, or in my case lack of being cared for.
In my opinion I think that family is what you make of it. I don't believe people are my family because we share the same blood, people who are family stand with you no matter what. They don't call you a liar or try to ruin your life.
If you were lucky enough to have grown up in a house with parents who care about you and stand up for you when you can't than good for you.
I make my own family, I have an amazing husband, 2 great kids and a 15 yr old brother.
My parents aren't around because I don't need nor want that kind of poison in my life, and the same goes for my extended "family" cousin's aunts, uncles all of them, none of them have ever been there for me.
So in my opinion I honestly believe family is what you make of it, blood does not matter. It's their character that matter's and blood related or not I like choosing who is in my family, because when I choose who I let into my life I am not as easily going to be let down like I was growing up.
My advice to anyone who reads this is don't fight with your "family", and don't feel you need them just because you share the same blood. Family is what you make of it, not what you were born into.
CHEER'S TO MY FAMILY, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!
I say make the best out of what you have, don't fight and argue with people who don't understand or care about you just because you share the same blood, go out and find your own family. I promise it makes this world a whole lot easier to deal with.........
In my opinion I think that family is what you make of it. I don't believe people are my family because we share the same blood, people who are family stand with you no matter what. They don't call you a liar or try to ruin your life.
If you were lucky enough to have grown up in a house with parents who care about you and stand up for you when you can't than good for you.
I make my own family, I have an amazing husband, 2 great kids and a 15 yr old brother.
My parents aren't around because I don't need nor want that kind of poison in my life, and the same goes for my extended "family" cousin's aunts, uncles all of them, none of them have ever been there for me.
So in my opinion I honestly believe family is what you make of it, blood does not matter. It's their character that matter's and blood related or not I like choosing who is in my family, because when I choose who I let into my life I am not as easily going to be let down like I was growing up.
My advice to anyone who reads this is don't fight with your "family", and don't feel you need them just because you share the same blood. Family is what you make of it, not what you were born into.
CHEER'S TO MY FAMILY, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!
I say make the best out of what you have, don't fight and argue with people who don't understand or care about you just because you share the same blood, go out and find your own family. I promise it makes this world a whole lot easier to deal with.........
Friday, June 15, 2012
I AM A SURVIVOR.............BUT.............
I am a survivor, but..
My husband is right, I am not myself and I am not going to be until I can get rid of all the hatred that is running through me. I can admit that yes, I HATE MY FATHER.
I hate him for everything he did to me, for how badly he hurt me. I hate him for not being there and for not having time for me. YES I HATE MY FATHER, but I HATE MYSELF MORE.
I HATE ME.
Yes I have very good reason to hate me. The first time my father touched me, I should have told. I should have screamed, something, anything would have been better, but unfortunatly I believed this was normal. All father's teach their daughter's what sex is and how to do it properly. This is what I grew up believing this and that it was a BIG secret. All family's do this, but nobody talks about it. My father explained it to me like this.
"All the children who die, die because their parent's had to kill them to keep their secret. And if you tell ANYBODY, even your mother than I will have to kill you to. So you need to do as I say and not tell a soul."
For years and years I put this memory way into the back of my mind, so far back in fact that I had the luxury of completely forgetting about this part of my life until the nightmares began. At first I ignored them, thinking that I was crazy, but soon all of the horrible details came flooding back with avengence. And this is why I HATE MYSELF.
When I first remembered what the bastard did to me I should have pressed charges right then and there. The problem was that my own mother didn't believe me, so instead I did nothing.
I DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
I did nothing, and because I did nothing who knows how many other little girls he has touched, who else had been affected because of him. Amazingly all of this I was able to again keep it out of my mind, that is until I was given a very rude awakening.
I recently found out that other small children who are around him all the time began showing signs of being molested. Right away I knew that my father had something to do with with, and that I could have prevented it all. Right then and there the bitch inside of me came roaring out. Because I didn't do any thing I now know of at least two children my father has affected.
IT'S MY FAULT.
IT'S ALL MY FAULT.
The worst part though is that I can make everything go away. I can make sure that my father gets what he deserves and make sure that no other children can be hurt by him. I could do this, but at the same time, I CAN'T.
I CAN'T DO IT.
I can't go there. If I took my father to court would kill me. I'm a coward. I am not strong enough to stand in a room and tell people the details of what he did to me. But even worse than that is I am afraid if I were to take him to court, I wouldn't be able to look my husband in the eye. How can I survive having to relive those days in detail? I can barely deal with the realization that this actually happened to me.
I can't think about the details. If I do I will never feel clean again, and if I'm not clean how do I live?
I HATE MYSELF..
I am only writing this blog to try and heal myself, I have no intention on hurting anyone or even giving out names. My one and only purpose for this post is so that I can move on with my life, I wrote this trying to get my feelings out so that I may be a better parent to my children.
My counsellor said that writing it out is the best therapy, thus the reason behind me writing my autobiography. My hope is that by the time I finish writing my story than maybe I'll have the strength and courage to stand up in a court of law and let the world know exactly what he did to me..
My husband is right, I am not myself and I am not going to be until I can get rid of all the hatred that is running through me. I can admit that yes, I HATE MY FATHER.
I hate him for everything he did to me, for how badly he hurt me. I hate him for not being there and for not having time for me. YES I HATE MY FATHER, but I HATE MYSELF MORE.
I HATE ME.
Yes I have very good reason to hate me. The first time my father touched me, I should have told. I should have screamed, something, anything would have been better, but unfortunatly I believed this was normal. All father's teach their daughter's what sex is and how to do it properly. This is what I grew up believing this and that it was a BIG secret. All family's do this, but nobody talks about it. My father explained it to me like this.
"All the children who die, die because their parent's had to kill them to keep their secret. And if you tell ANYBODY, even your mother than I will have to kill you to. So you need to do as I say and not tell a soul."
For years and years I put this memory way into the back of my mind, so far back in fact that I had the luxury of completely forgetting about this part of my life until the nightmares began. At first I ignored them, thinking that I was crazy, but soon all of the horrible details came flooding back with avengence. And this is why I HATE MYSELF.
When I first remembered what the bastard did to me I should have pressed charges right then and there. The problem was that my own mother didn't believe me, so instead I did nothing.
I DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
I did nothing, and because I did nothing who knows how many other little girls he has touched, who else had been affected because of him. Amazingly all of this I was able to again keep it out of my mind, that is until I was given a very rude awakening.
I recently found out that other small children who are around him all the time began showing signs of being molested. Right away I knew that my father had something to do with with, and that I could have prevented it all. Right then and there the bitch inside of me came roaring out. Because I didn't do any thing I now know of at least two children my father has affected.
IT'S MY FAULT.
IT'S ALL MY FAULT.
The worst part though is that I can make everything go away. I can make sure that my father gets what he deserves and make sure that no other children can be hurt by him. I could do this, but at the same time, I CAN'T.
I CAN'T DO IT.
I can't go there. If I took my father to court would kill me. I'm a coward. I am not strong enough to stand in a room and tell people the details of what he did to me. But even worse than that is I am afraid if I were to take him to court, I wouldn't be able to look my husband in the eye. How can I survive having to relive those days in detail? I can barely deal with the realization that this actually happened to me.
I can't think about the details. If I do I will never feel clean again, and if I'm not clean how do I live?
I HATE MYSELF..
I am only writing this blog to try and heal myself, I have no intention on hurting anyone or even giving out names. My one and only purpose for this post is so that I can move on with my life, I wrote this trying to get my feelings out so that I may be a better parent to my children.
My counsellor said that writing it out is the best therapy, thus the reason behind me writing my autobiography. My hope is that by the time I finish writing my story than maybe I'll have the strength and courage to stand up in a court of law and let the world know exactly what he did to me..
Sunday, November 13, 2011
One world
"In my opinion I belive that the world has become too small for all our boarder's, what is the point of it? Why are the world leader's determined to keep us apart?
I believe that with enough people together, standing as 1 that we can make the world and all it's "leader's" realize just how small it really is and that we are all a part of it. If change is going to happen we must stand tall and together.
I believe that we don't need boarder's, boarder's around the world is the cause of ALL the war and pain and suffering. If we were one without boarders nobody would be dying because they don't have enough to eat and nobody would be suffering because we would all be 1. Without any boarder's we are one, everyone is family and everyone will look after us, no more starving children in Africa, no more of our vetrians staying homeless on the streets. If the world were one there would be no need for war and the wealthy would actually help the less fortunate. If the world were one we would all live in a better place, a place where we didn't have to worry about our children being kidnapped for we would look after each other.
This is the world I want my children to have the world i think we are all entitled to. Please stand with me to demand change, it can happen if we want it bad enough.
WITH ONE WORLD WE HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO LOOK AFTER EACH OTHER AND THE RICH WOULD NO LONGER BE ABLE TO TELL THE REST OF US HOW TO LIVE...
I BELIEVE A CHANGE IS POSSABLE AND I BELIEVE CHANGE CAN HAPPEN NOW....."
I believe that with enough people together, standing as 1 that we can make the world and all it's "leader's" realize just how small it really is and that we are all a part of it. If change is going to happen we must stand tall and together.
I believe that we don't need boarder's, boarder's around the world is the cause of ALL the war and pain and suffering. If we were one without boarders nobody would be dying because they don't have enough to eat and nobody would be suffering because we would all be 1. Without any boarder's we are one, everyone is family and everyone will look after us, no more starving children in Africa, no more of our vetrians staying homeless on the streets. If the world were one there would be no need for war and the wealthy would actually help the less fortunate. If the world were one we would all live in a better place, a place where we didn't have to worry about our children being kidnapped for we would look after each other.
This is the world I want my children to have the world i think we are all entitled to. Please stand with me to demand change, it can happen if we want it bad enough.
WITH ONE WORLD WE HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO LOOK AFTER EACH OTHER AND THE RICH WOULD NO LONGER BE ABLE TO TELL THE REST OF US HOW TO LIVE...
I BELIEVE A CHANGE IS POSSABLE AND I BELIEVE CHANGE CAN HAPPEN NOW....."
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Help the sick and injured
I want to change the laws in parliment. If a person is forced to leave work due to illness or injury they only get 15 weeks unemployment, but if a person quits for the right reasons they can get unemployment for up to 50 weeks. Please click on the link and sign the petition. Show Canada you care.
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